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Reviving the Writer

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Deciding to revive a once-lost memory is intimidating. The will to bare your thoughts, sometimes unedited, for public viewing, conjures images of hiding behind my mother's dress at church -just to get a good peek at things before edging into view.

 If only writing gave us at least that safety net. 

A conversation with a friend inspired this post, a decade after shutting down and retreating to small blurbs on social media. 
I asked why she hasn't 'written that book.'

You know, when judging others, you're just asking to be judged yourself--and our toughest judge typically is our own inner voice.
Henceforth, I have determined that on this day, in order to practice what I speak, in absolute protest against my tendency to imposter syndrome, I'll be writing again. 

It isn't that I stopped communicating but I stopped sharing my thoughts so openly. 

I'll update the happenings of the past decade and plan a fresh look to this space. 

Everchanging,

Kristen

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